why is life so hard? why do i ask myself that while knowing that life is MUCH harder for others? i mean...they say nearly a billion people suffer from starvation. that's roughly one in six humans, right? yet, when i get home from work i say, "i'm starving...i need to get a snack!" so what do i do? i no longer use the word 'starving'. i'm trying to delete it from my vocabulary. big deal...this doesn't really do anything for anyone...and that's hard.
this is my battle tonight. feeling guilty for thinking my life is hard. feeling guilty for thinking my "plans" aren't working out the way i want them to. feeling guilty for thinking i wish i made more money. feeling guilty for wishing i had what others have. feeling guilty for wishing i had more time in the day. feeling guilty for not praying for people who are going through a tough time...when i told them i would. feeling guilty for taking things for granted. feeling guilty for stuff!
guilt·y
–adjective, guilt·i·er, guilt·i·est.
1. having committed an offense, crime, violation, or wrong, esp. against moral or penal law; justly subject to a certain accusation or penalty; culpable: The jury found her guilty of murder.
2. characterized by, connected with, or involving guilt: guilty intent.
3. having or showing a sense of guilt, whether real or imagined: a guilty conscience.
the bright side? attitudes are made to be changed...so i'm trying to change my attitude and get a new perspective. nuf sed.
I was over paid on my paycheck this week. I thought about just letting it go but I new I would feel GUILTY. So I called HR and told her. I felt better about myself after doing that.
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Guilt is the sign of a tender conscience, in touch with God and aware of His holiness. It can be a good thing if it spurs me on to repentance. Unless I stop at the feeling and wallow in it. That's when it gets destructive. Use guilt as a motivator for change, like your dad. Then, when it does its work, it goes away. -M.
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