why is life so hard? why do i ask myself that while knowing that life is MUCH harder for others? i mean...they say nearly a billion people suffer from starvation. that's roughly one in six humans, right? yet, when i get home from work i say, "i'm starving...i need to get a snack!" so what do i do? i no longer use the word 'starving'. i'm trying to delete it from my vocabulary. big deal...this doesn't really do anything for anyone...and that's hard.
this is my battle tonight. feeling guilty for thinking my life is hard. feeling guilty for thinking my "plans" aren't working out the way i want them to. feeling guilty for thinking i wish i made more money. feeling guilty for wishing i had what others have. feeling guilty for wishing i had more time in the day. feeling guilty for not praying for people who are going through a tough time...when i told them i would. feeling guilty for taking things for granted. feeling guilty for stuff!
guilt·y
–adjective, guilt·i·er, guilt·i·est.
1. having committed an offense, crime, violation, or wrong, esp. against moral or penal law; justly subject to a certain accusation or penalty; culpable: The jury found her guilty of murder.
2. characterized by, connected with, or involving guilt: guilty intent.
3. having or showing a sense of guilt, whether real or imagined: a guilty conscience.
the bright side? attitudes are made to be changed...so i'm trying to change my attitude and get a new perspective. nuf sed.
10.27.2010
10.23.2010
number one with a bullet
so, check it. i'm a music snob, okay? okay. now that we've got that cleared up and there is no argument from my side...we can move on. hopefully my snobitude won't offend anyone too much in this post.
recently, while hanging out with emily and my best friend, brett, i told them i had a list of my top five most disliked songs of all time. this came up when one of the songs off my list came on at a restaurant we were at. i said, "oh, man...this is one song that tops my list of songs i cannot stand!" they couldn't believe it. for a couple reasons. one, both of them didn't mind the song. two, who really has a list of songs they don't like...or lists in general? me. making lists is where it's at.
my top five songs (not artists, just their songs) i cannot stand, will not ever like, and wish i would never hear again (from least to most dislike):
5. saturday nights alright for fighting by elton john // i can't stand this song simply because the ending and how he repeats/yells "saturday" over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over again...and then a few more times
4. i love rock and roll by joan jett and the blackhearts // to be honest...guitar hero wrecked this one for me.
3. sweet home alabama by lynyrd skynrd // although i've never been to alabama...it is not my sweet home. and unfortunately i don't have a specific reason to disliking this song.
2. with arms wide open by creed // i know i said i didn't necessarily dislike the artist of the songs...but seriously, anything by creed is a no go for me.
1. american pie by don mclean // i always feel kind of guilty about this one simply because of the "musical history" he wrote about...but it's still nine minutes too long. and the fact that websites like this exist is just insane.
i know it's obnoxious to make this list, but i had to put it out there. you may love one of these songs, maybe all of them, and that's okay (sort of) if you do. everyone is entitled to their own opinion of what they like/dislike. i'm just the one with the blog that spends the time to do stuff like this. but feel free to leave a comment if you feel the need.
i was really hoping to be able to come up with my top 5 favorite songs of all time, but quickly realized that would actually make me more insane trying to come up with just five. i'd almost prefer to listen to one of these songs above...not really though.
recently, while hanging out with emily and my best friend, brett, i told them i had a list of my top five most disliked songs of all time. this came up when one of the songs off my list came on at a restaurant we were at. i said, "oh, man...this is one song that tops my list of songs i cannot stand!" they couldn't believe it. for a couple reasons. one, both of them didn't mind the song. two, who really has a list of songs they don't like...or lists in general? me. making lists is where it's at.
my top five songs (not artists, just their songs) i cannot stand, will not ever like, and wish i would never hear again (from least to most dislike):
5. saturday nights alright for fighting by elton john // i can't stand this song simply because the ending and how he repeats/yells "saturday" over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over again...and then a few more times
4. i love rock and roll by joan jett and the blackhearts // to be honest...guitar hero wrecked this one for me.
3. sweet home alabama by lynyrd skynrd // although i've never been to alabama...it is not my sweet home. and unfortunately i don't have a specific reason to disliking this song.
2. with arms wide open by creed // i know i said i didn't necessarily dislike the artist of the songs...but seriously, anything by creed is a no go for me.
1. american pie by don mclean // i always feel kind of guilty about this one simply because of the "musical history" he wrote about...but it's still nine minutes too long. and the fact that websites like this exist is just insane.
i know it's obnoxious to make this list, but i had to put it out there. you may love one of these songs, maybe all of them, and that's okay (sort of) if you do. everyone is entitled to their own opinion of what they like/dislike. i'm just the one with the blog that spends the time to do stuff like this. but feel free to leave a comment if you feel the need.
i was really hoping to be able to come up with my top 5 favorite songs of all time, but quickly realized that would actually make me more insane trying to come up with just five. i'd almost prefer to listen to one of these songs above...not really though.
10.18.2010
every little thing gonna be alright
have you ever had a day start out alright...and then end awful? maybe something happened. maybe nothing happened. you just get in a funk? i'm there, man. out of left field today...i realized i was in a horrible mood. i figured my blog should be totally honest and not just include posts from "happy, optimistic tony," but also include a post or two from "today sucks, lets move on tony." the goal here is not to bring you down, but to somehow lift you up and possibly help you feel better about your day. quick warning...this could very easily flop and just upset everyone who reads it (good thing only four people read it.)
Alright, lets do this...short and simple, so i can go watch hawaii five-0. did i mention i suck when i'm in a bad mood.
6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. 7 Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.
Philipians 4:6-7 NLT
seriously? don't worry about anything? yeah...sure...no problem. that part alone makes me worry. pray about everything? easy enough...except when you're like me and have "prayer-a.d.d." and find yourself making your way back to God after realizing you stopped praying minutes/hours ago without even finishing your thought. now, telling God what i need...i am good at that (except most of them are probably wants). thanking Him for all He has done...i'm working on that. i've heard before to start praying with all you're thankful for and don't ask for anything until the end of the prayer...you'll begin to realize you might not need that much and start to realize how much you are thankful for. God's peace...yeah i want that, especially if it guards my heart and mind. this scripture hit me tonight. it's like i realized tonight that God knows i mess up. like i was somehow able to hide it before...or sneak by under the radar. how could i make God so small?
that scripture above is something i wish i read every morning. then why don't i? no excuse to give...just an overall bad decision.
the good news (finally!) is that God is forgiving and ALWAYS there!
10 Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.
Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you.
I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.
Isaiah 41:10 NLT
Alright, lets do this...short and simple, so i can go watch hawaii five-0. did i mention i suck when i'm in a bad mood.
6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. 7 Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.
Philipians 4:6-7 NLT
seriously? don't worry about anything? yeah...sure...no problem. that part alone makes me worry. pray about everything? easy enough...except when you're like me and have "prayer-a.d.d." and find yourself making your way back to God after realizing you stopped praying minutes/hours ago without even finishing your thought. now, telling God what i need...i am good at that (except most of them are probably wants). thanking Him for all He has done...i'm working on that. i've heard before to start praying with all you're thankful for and don't ask for anything until the end of the prayer...you'll begin to realize you might not need that much and start to realize how much you are thankful for. God's peace...yeah i want that, especially if it guards my heart and mind. this scripture hit me tonight. it's like i realized tonight that God knows i mess up. like i was somehow able to hide it before...or sneak by under the radar. how could i make God so small?
that scripture above is something i wish i read every morning. then why don't i? no excuse to give...just an overall bad decision.
the good news (finally!) is that God is forgiving and ALWAYS there!
10 Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.
Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you.
I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.
Isaiah 41:10 NLT
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